Adhesions and the Timelines of the Unconsicous::
Adhesions and the Timelines of the Unconscious
© 2006 by Jonathan Zap revised 2008
Edited by Austin Iredale
The following is a slightly adapted journal entry, and when I write for myself I tend to do so in a highly dense manner, but I hope this will still be accessible because it relates to a phenomenon that affects most of our lives. Emotionally intense experiences, life phases, and relationships, tend to form timelines that continue in the unconscious, and sometimes these alternate timelines can enrich the soul, and other times they can divert massive amounts of psychic energy away from our being fully engaged with the present.
Last night’s dream was a variation on a dream I have had many times before, where there seems to be an extremely emotionally charged recapitulation of the timeline related to my teaching on Long Island, from which I departed in 1995. The details are hard to convey, and if languaged would not seem to justify the emotional intensity. That particular year was such a huge bifurcation for me, and my call to adventure involved genuine sacrifices that continue to reverberate---I gave up both complete economic security and also daily work with kids. But this choice was one that absolutely had to be made, and when these dreams occur it feels like I am experiencing both the pain of the sacrifice and also the pain that would have been involved had I continued on that timeline, pain that seems, in dreamtime, to have a momentum toward tragic outcomes, a timeline where I miss my destiny. It appears that the life I led had built up so much psychic momentum that it continues to create its own emotionally charged timeline in dreamtime even though in June it will be 13 years since I have left it in the waking life.
Intuition
is guiding me in a different direction now though, asking me where the emotion
of the dream is trying to take me. It seems to be showing me an image of
the past timeline, and past desires, as though they are adhesions (the little
strings of connective tissue that constrict flexibility of the body)
constricting the expansion of my soul.
As I realize this I can feel some of these adhesions being torn
away. As they begin to release, I experience an intensity of catharsis
that seems a lesser version of what some near death experiencers report about
the life review. The dreams are exposing emotional adhesions that can
keep me from fully bonding to this timeline, from fully embracing the present
moment, keeping me in a disassociated state as energy is diverted into
maintaining other timelines in the unconscious.
The classic example of this is someone
living one life, while at the same time holding on to a lost romance or
departed (through death) significant other. They typically self medicate,
and live only partially in the waking timeline, as large parts of their
energetic/emotional bodies remain committed to a timeline that continues in the
unconscious. The answer, for me at least, being highlighted by intuition,
is to allow tearing away of these adhesions so as to more fully bond to the
present timeline.
Adhesions to lost relationships can divert energy from relationships that are
actually present. One reason why teaching maintains such persistent
psychic momentum that its timeline continues in the unconscious, is that it
involved so many moments of vivid presence. Relating to kids, teaching a
class of some thirty students, forces presence because there is so much psychic
energy present that disassociation (except in the case of really bad teachers)
is almost impossible. People who live a disassociated life working in a
cubicle, etc. may find that the timelines of high school, college, or military
service--- periods when they had more intense bonding to a group--- continue
and become a subject of nostalgic reverie or spontaneous recollection.
Similarly, traumatic events like war trauma involve moments of such
absolute presence and terror that they retain psychic momentum and their
timeline continues in the unconscious, ready to erupt into the waking
consciousness at moments of disassociation. These sorts of visitations
from the past are not likely to happen when highly present, say when you are
engrossed in a conversation with someone, but are more likely to happen when
alone, when in a twilight state, or a state of intoxication.
High level fantasy writing (and fiction writing
in general) involves the investment of emotional energy into a timeline that is
not generated by the long shadow of sentimental attachment, but that is
continued in the unconscious erupting episodically into the
conscious. Anne Rice, for example, went into an alcoholic
depression when she lost her daughter. She came out of it by writing Interview
with a Vampire. Energy from the timeline related to her lost child was
diverted into intense fantasy timelines.
For the creative person,
energy needs to flow into alternate creative timelines. Conversely, mind
parasites prefer energy to remain fixed into stagnant timelines which generate
negative energies they can suck on, like marrow remaining in an old bone.
A poor diet feeds these corroded timelines because their low quality of
vibration more readily accepts the low vibratory quality of inferior
nourishment.
This tendency can be readily illustrated by an example familiar to anyone: We have an old drunk at a bar, and at a certain phase of his drunkenness the present dissolves and he reminisces about emotionally charged events from the past. Eventually the present audience dissolves into a blur as well, and whether anyone in a present timeline is engaged or not, he continues to live out these stagnant emotionally charged timelines, interacting out loud with relationships that exist only in memory, etc. It is as if these timelines are like corroded arteries, but ones that actively accept the low-quality energy of drunkenness and stagnant sentimentality as better than the present timeline.
A kind of loyalty to these past timelines exists in the stagnant person: He is
married to them, and wants the metabolism that feeds these low quality
fires. The heightened energy that people feel when they fall in love, or
when the Muse captivates them, has so much greater intensity than usual because
energy is flowing into a new and alive timeline and not being reabsorbed into
old ones. For the average person, it is the interpersonal relationship
that is the main thing that can magnetize energy into the present. Even
so, the relationship will quickly become the new point of adhesion, and old
arteries will attach themselves so that the new relationship will begin to
“carry the baggage” of past relationships and merge with the old
timelines.
The creative person, able to give himself
completely to the Muse, is the one best able to personify freed-up energy
capable of intense focus in the moment. Another example of a person with
powerful freed-up energy is a saint, someone like the Dali Lama, who is able to
be intensely present when they encounter a soul. This intensity is
allowed by their not being sentimentally attached to just a few close
relationships. Therefore, when they encounter a new person, this freed-up
energy is able to sharply focus on that particular person while they are the
subject of attention, and the person they encounter is likely to be
deeply affected by this moment of presence. Of course, the average person
will then form an adhesion to that moment of time, but will not internalize the
lesson: He too can move toward such intensity of presence himself by
freeing energy from adhesions to make it be available in the present.
It would be a mistake here to overstate the case, because past timelines serve a purpose for the soul, and the soul has its reasons that reason and principles of energetic efficiency know nothing of. For particular souls, at particular life phases, for example the very old who are doing a kind of life recapitulation while in the body, this may be where they need to go. Also, key relationships remain important to the soul even when the other has departed the body or is no longer available. These relationships continue as timelines, and in some cases these relationships may even develop, evolve and deepen without the physical presence of the other. Sometimes people can do creative things with the diversion of energy to past timelines. Perhaps the most famous example is Marcel Proust’s masterwork, Remembrance of Things Past.
The conscious individual has to discern for himself whether the timelines he maintains in the unconscious are worth the investment of his psychic energy.
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